“Spiritual House Keeping”
Over the past few weeks I have felt strongly called to step back from many of the different things I do and take a season to re evaluate where God wants me.
I have a tenancy to dive into projects and commitments, heart first – and rarely take the time to give it to God first for His input. I feel a lot of times I make a decision to “GO” and attempt to drag God along with me… and recently I have become aware that not only is this exhausting me… it isn’t even remotely the right way to go about things.
So… with a heavy heart… this past week I did a bit of Spiritual Housekeeping. I have prayed on this for direction and felt I needed to step back from many of my ministries to take this time for God to have the lead in my life and show me His will… not mine.
What I have found out so far – is that this decision of letting go, was way more painful than I anticipated. I have found myself in tears over these decisions many times over the past week and would like to write it off as the fact that I have not been feeling well so I am more emotional, but I don’t think that is true. I am finding out that the roles I serve in are very important to me and letting them go has left me struggling in a white knuckled way of trying to hang on to them… knowing that God is patiently but firmly saying, “Let Go.”
So here I am. Feeling broken like I haven’t in a long time. And as much as this is killing me… the brokeness makes me believe I am on the right track. Pray for me… to hold strong… and that this Season isn’t long…
Ephesians 1:11 (The Message)
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